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| 07:32pm 26/08/2008 |
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What is comfort? What is a comfortable thought? I was asked a question about a week and a half ago that i havent been able to get out of my mind, it just keeps looping in an endless circle. The question came rather uneventfully, it wasnt meant to spark major thought, it was just a simple yes or no question. I was speaking with a freind of mine about of all things shrooms, now ive never been a druggie, i like my booze and have tried a little weed a couple of times but never made a habit and havent touched anything but alchohol for several years, but ive always had a curiosity about hallucinogenics, you know altered states of mind and what one would see during these episodes, you know what my mind would conjure up. Now my freind has experiance with these sort of things and i was asking him about the type of things one might see and the type of mindset one needs to be in to have a "good trip" He told me there was but one rule, one thing that could fuck your trip and maybe your mind, he asked me "are you comfortable with your own thoughts?" I immediatly answered yes without thinking about it, but later for some reason i coldnt stop thinking about it. Do the things i think about bother me? No, not really at all. Are the things I think about things that would bother any "normal" person? Yes, not a question in my mind. How would i react to seeing these things up close and personal? I dont know to be honest. And so the circle goes, if im not sure how i would react to seeing these things for real wouldnt that mean that i am bothered by them, but yet as i am thinking about them they dont bother me at all, so am i comfortable with my thoughts or not? i guess the easiest response would be i dont know, but I know my thoughts dont bug me so........ahhhhggggrrrr, as i said its a vicious cycle, hopefully ill eventually stop pondering it. |
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| Writer's Block: Your Username |
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| 02:06am 17/08/2008 |
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Ok so, i went to a church camp when i was like 15 or 16. While there I met a couple of girls and they soon became very good freinds. About a week before leaving for camp i had been out in the woods camping with a good friend of mine and almost chopped my finger off with a machete, so the whole time i was at camp i had alot of bandages on my hand and a very large splint on my arm to make sure the bones healed right in my hand. They all told me i couldnt play any of the games while there being as most of them were very physical and sometimes rather violent but i wasnt going to sit on the sidelines and joined in anyway, i broke my splint 3 times and had to be pulled out of many of the more rowdy games for using it as a weapon ( it was pretty much a half a cast held on by ace bandages...he he he) so my two new freinds started calling me insane, about a day after the first time calling me that (which i didnt deny) i was talking with one of the girls and she told me that this guy she was "dating" had been rather unpleasent to her that morning and had been seen heading of into the woods with the camp tricycle. I, being rather protective and kinda an asshole, made some sort of comment about how we should tie him up with razor wire and start tickling him with a feather then rip his head off and boil it in acid while dancing around it naked, singing slipknot, and drinking grom his body like a sportsbottle......needless to say after that she dubbed me psychopath and i liked the sound of it.....i added the extra h because someone else had the correct spelling. |
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| Writer's Block: A Fruity Synthesis |
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| 07:33pm 16/08/2008 |
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Confusion:
It would be a mixture of the poison apple from snow white and the fruit from the tree of life out of the Bible. I suppose it would taste like a really good apple mixed with cough syrup, and would look like a golden delicous with a slight blood red hugh in it, it would also have a halo of light around it with dark highlights running though it and would be able to levetate in any stationary spot you put it (so when you let it go, it will stay stationary in that spot untill removed). Its effects would be, as its name implies, very confusing: instant and complete death followed by an immediate complete revival that raises you beyond you normal mortal state into a temporary state of accension in which all is known and seen, then a plumet back down into a normal waking state. All this woud occur in approxmatly 15 seconds but to the user it would as though ages had passed on super fast forward, leaving a feeling of slight uphoria mixed with the feeling of stepping of the fastest, craziest roller coaster ever envisioned. To experiance all major events emotions and physical feelings and live to tell of it........ talk about confusion |
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| 01:33pm 07/08/2008 |
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mood:  pessimistic music: Build Me Up Buttercup (i know...it was just on the radio, i didnt choose it)
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What causes a man to go crazy??? Yesturday my "uncle" went basically insane for seemingly no reason, he had been working for my Dad as a general goto guy on the new house they are building, i had gone out there and worked with him on the house a few times, just to help, and he always was alot of fun to hang out with, sure he was a little weird and definantly scatterbrained, but he knew what he was doing and got it done all while having a rather pleasent demeanor. He and my aunt have been "dating" (i put that in quotes because ten years seems a little long to be dating and thier relationship was more than that) for like ten years and minus some perfectally normal fights, havent had any problems that i am aware of. Yesturday he just went nuts, called my dad and cussed and threatened him for fifteen minutes, basically saying he wanted alot more money out of nowhere, he and my dad had agreed on a wage prior to him starting the job and my dad had been giving him extra money for expenses and doing a good job and he had never once mentioned anything about wanting more money prior to that phone call, its just odd to think that threats would be a good way to get a raise, then he got drunk and started in on my aunt, again unprovoked, and eventually tried to hurt her, the whole event scared her so bad that after ten years she decided she is leaving him, now ive suffured my fair share of bad days and asshole mindframes, even a few small mental breakdowns, but holy shit man, never in my life have i ever seen anyone just be perfectally fine one day and just do a divebomb into psycholand the next, its scary, i know ive had alot of people say im nuts and say i need anger management and say im a sick twisted motherfucker, but ive never hurt anyone i care about, and never badly hurt people i dont care about, is this normal? are we all just doomed in some way to lose it and hurt those we love? i know that its not true but shit, how can a man thats never hurt anyone and always been kind and fun to be around just freak out like that, and if it can happen to him, it could happen to anyone. |
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| 05:02pm 04/08/2008 |
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mood:  surprised music: some mindless crap on the radio
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I can't belive this thing still works after years of being completly inactive. Its a fucking wonder.... so whats new with me??? not that anyone will ever see this or care but i got married, had a kid, have another on the way, i have the coolest job ever and will soon be getting a new motorcycle with which to kill myself :) everything else has been pretty much a bunch of endless drama bullshit that i hate and therefore wont talk about unless provoked. thank god things have calmed down a bit and every thought i have isnt just continual plans of some peoples death (the imagination is a beautifull thing) and i can take pleasure in wonderfull karma taking revenge for me...heeheehee well now that i have nothing to do at work maybe i'll actually use this thing, granted its years after people were trying to get me to use it and i doubt any of them are even on here anymore but what the hey it gives me something to do right? |
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| 12:13pm 30/05/2003 |
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woah i cant belive this thing is still up, yeah well im kinda bummed out, i have this "friend" and she asked me something about another friend, something pretty serious, and i said i wouldnt talk about it and she just kept talking about it and i just kept trying to change the subject and now she went and told my other friend that i told her everything and i didnt and hes all pissed at me now and might be in alot of trouble and im not sure he belives what i am telling him happened.....Damn i hate this high school BULLSHIT, i wasnt gonna lie but i didnt tell her a GODDAMN THING, and now a really good friend of mine thinks i betrayed him, jees im just gonna quit talking to people period, people fucking suck and i hate them all, this is just fucking bullshit, i think im gonna have to bitch her out now...this person i thought was one of my friends fucking lies about me and might have ruined a friendship with another one of my friends...why the helled she do that, i mean WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!!!!!!!!!!
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| 10:55am 30/04/2002 |
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You are 50% evil! [?]
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You? Evil? Half way there! You're 50%, meaning you can't always be trusted...well, half of the time! You're the perfect balance between good and evil, but being that much evil isn't always good...
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| 10:14am 29/04/2002 |
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 | You're the lego Native!
Ug-a-wug! You're the lego native! You're wild and adventurous, and just a little bit insane. You know how to have a good time, and uh, you really like meat. |
| <td><table width="400" border="0" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="0">| Take the "What Lego character are you?" test! by ctbx |
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